Madonna and influence!!!

Today i was listening to madonna and watching her videos. And i was inspired to write about her and her impact on my life. AS you may know from previous blogs i would rent early madonna videos on vhs when i was with my father. My mother never liked her when i was younger and thought she was a slut. But i always had admiration for her. Her music always made me happy and was like my guidance through life knowing i was always different and not afraid of things that others may not understand!!! I remember when her true blue album came out and i was in grade 5 and it was the annual end of year bbq or park party for us. We had an airband contest or lip synching contest whatever you may call it. And i decided to borrow my gfs jean skirt from across the street and wear red lipstick and do white heat!!! I was in a public park and dancing in a skirt in drag and dancing my ass off. I came in second place. I would sing and dance to madonna anytime i heard her. I actually think she is the reason i lost weight. She inspired me and i felt the need to try to emulate her throughout my life. As i always felt different. I have had all her hair styles and eyebrows throughout my life. I had the dreaded i'll remember haircut and brows. I also made the mistake for removing my brows to draw them in like deeper and deeper and haven't been able to grow them back in. And the more i emulated her the more i got lost from my upbringing and myself. She is also the reason i have the name dita. Before i was dita i would go to the bar at age 15 as veronica or flame or simone. Depending on the hair colour i had. And i remember army officers at the grant in winnipeg giving me roses and trying to score with me. Hahaha but when erotica came out i came into contact with F my drag queen friend who got me my first performance as madonna in a club. And since then i was known as Dita. And to this day i am known as her. I never really tried to understand all she has done or why she has until i met guido. Who made me reflect on my life and all i do. Then it came to me one day when i was all alone and in a ketamine state. I began to think of the women before her who were often judged for their actions that were not considered ladylike. And she was showing us the world the actions of a man but as a woman. And how everyone was so quick to judge yet we couldn't help be be fascinated. From scandalous topics as being a pregnant tenager. To a black jesus which if you truly think about it jesus was from a place that was very sunny and hot so why wouldn't he be black??? Jesus also was a jew who knows maybe he was trying to say don't cast the first stone or educate us on the man upstairs. Anyways back to madonna. So i began to think about women and how supposedly they were made from adams rib. And because of the story of how she ate from the forbidden fruit and that is why man was cast out of eden. And women then became sort of considered bad. Yet if she was given knowledge then why does man not listen to her? And that maybe she feels that women throughout history have been given the short end of  the stick when the legend says she ate from the tre knowledge so was man jealous of the knowledge she gained. And if so why did he mistreat her in past and not have any consequences??? Anyways when she finally did ray of light i began to understand her. And relate even more to her. She lost her mother at 5 and my dad left us at 5. Feeling alone and different from the beginning. She has taken us as humans to see that through all our different cultures we all believe in a good a light! And that god is in all of us. From any religion. And that is what i take from madonna that god loves all of us and that we are all iving for the same thing. Life love and understanding!!! She will always be my hero and mentor. Unafraid to go into the dark to come through to the light! It's not about the dance beats its about the message and throughout her career it has always been to understand and listen to someones story!! I hope you feel as i do!!!